Para sa nagiisang Ate (pwe!!!!)

Ang tao kahet pinturahan mo lalabas pa rin ang natural niyang burak na balat!
Lalo na't manhid na siya sa gakapal ng kaniyang pagmumukha!
Yung bang hindi punung puno ng akalang isa siyang kabutihan!
Ngunit ang budhi sagad hanggang anit ang sama ng ugali
Walang sisinuhin, mapakapatid o kunwa'y magkadugo nga!
O dili kaya'y kapwa mong hampaslupa! Kung sino man itong tinutukoy ko, nagiisa siya..walang katumbas!
At kamumuhian ko siya hanggang sa huli kong hininga!
Mauna sana siya.
(Sorry talaga, nagdasal naman ako kanina) Kaya nga hindi na ako lumaban sa bunganga
Tiyak ang karma sa kaniya.

Procastinating Cash Out Payment - unEdited

(For those who will be commenting about the grammar, choice of words, WTF reactions - as if i care but i should....Save your spicy words because I'm not yet done with this..I'm just not in my Money mood to extract my point of view. THINGS YOU WANT TO ADD are welcome.)

There was no other entry that came into my mind during and after watching Confessions of a Shopaholic. While viewing it, I was kind of thinking if this film would what: make me laugh and save my sanity from grieving of being stuck in bed (because the people I wanted to be with were all saying NO to me! The pass out OLATs me!); or, just, like any other romanedy movie….would inspire me??? I never thought that this film taught me a certain realization ——— this Shopaholic girl with a green scarf, was also into some sort of Procrastination...from paying.

What does this word mean anyway? I have attended a workshop twice using a lot of Procrastination words, it is, per se—is always taking your time for granted. That was the definition I have in mind.. It is indeed a broad form of letters for one to define, but to further use in my real world, I have linked it with money, The general Cash Out Payment that I sadly face..

Happy to get all the stuff you’ve ever dreamt of buying without paying it in cash? Instead, a Magic Card will always come to the rescue to pay for it in advance, then almost not counting 20days in getting the long bill, count 10days more, before its due date! 20 +10, is a good month deal to start realizing that credit card also means money.

The perk is so overwhelming, the fact that you can do staggered payment, then deal with the interest later….spend again, receive a long bill, pay a hurtful 1/4 of the total amount. and it becomes a scary cycle! The bottom line is...you’re still stuck in debt, and YOU HAVE TO PAY IT STILL!!! it also allows you to abuse the old witch saying “ Why settle it now, when you can pay it later?”

Isnt it a major procrastination?

TBC….

My BOY-friend.

i do believe that we all need some male friends..having a boy friend doesn't mean you have to show or demonstrate a Feeling neither instigate a certain Attraction towards that person. It's the company that you want to maintain; and the brotherly love you Platonically enjoy!
But sometimes, as most of my closest tongues would say...Once Jealousy appears, the weaker side of that almost standing Foundation...crashes, thus the start of a Never Ending battle of Pride and Issue.

"Sigh, kill those wormcells!"

Iba pa rin ang may foundation

I know, and I do admit that I DID flake for several times; made last minute decisions not to proceed because of too much slacking, and really, because of SAYING YES without DOING IT.

I owe my 'long time no see' friends - a bucket of explanations and SORRYs. And I have missed them a lot...hell lot! But because at times, when you're inside your comfort zone and you have an easier access to your closest network, you tend to DEPRIORITIZE those Significant people who: have really touched your life especially during your Honing years: People with warmest smiles.

It really is hard to establish yourself -- your whole being to a lot of people; the fact that you have to start a foundation with a pool of different personalities, needs most of your effort and time. But when you get to see your OLD ONES, there's this feeling of 'i belong', and that makes you feel, HOME: When you get to share laughters and insights to such faces - who are always there not just to listen, but who would be more glad to sleep and wake up with you without any marks of doubtful thoughts and lying intentions as to why they wanted you to BECOME ONE OF THEM.

I am just Glad to reunite myself to THEM.

Thank you Friends.

Never play with a Vacuum Cleaner

Never ever get sucked by a vacuum cleaner. It confuses you with the law of reciprocity. If I were you, I'd rather deal lonely with a company of dirt and dust than try to be happy with a hoover that belongs to a somebody.

I shut my Door of Hope last Wednesday

It was the day I burned a lot of stored tears and calories.

The day I tried my best to be an adult in front of a corporate crowd.

The day I asked myself, "How far should I go? How high should I hope? For I've always been a lax to expectations."

The day I chose not to answer a text, cause I called. I felt professionally betrayed for a few hours. Til I got a call about a shivering news. It was one of those moments that My own Sheltered Self had run out of energy and strength. That most of them forgot that I also needed someone to hold on to. They thought I could swim the 7 seas in a forever lap without stopping.

Yes, I starred myself as a Wonderwoman, and lost it in One Unexpected Slap.

Thanks for all those who have unrecognized my worth and stay.

This day had scarred my sense of being.

The last straw of hope lost its hold and left me Coated, Hidden and Pained without being Healed.

2008 is indeed a Break Up Year

. a year where most promising relationships were put into waste.
. mostly those couples i once wished - they'd stay that way.
. and of course the hope ive been keeping for so long. i said goodbye to her a couple of weeks ago, the time i was really down with flu.
. and this heartless month, most of those i wanted Not to leave...will be gone next year.
. and so i ponder and internalize, will it be another Break Up year this 2009?
. me and the blunt reality.