The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you. – Anonymous

Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
In any given time or place

Sincere forgiveness isn't colored with expectations that the other person apologize or change. Don't worry whether or not they finally understand you. Love them and release them. Life feeds back truth to people in its own way and time - Sara Paddison

Touching letter from Nay and Tay

Sa aking Anak,

Sa aking pagtanda, unawain mo sana ako at pagpasensiyahan.

Kapag dala ng kalabuan ng mata ay nakabasag ako ng pinggan o nakatapon ng sabaw sa hapag kainan, huwag mo sana akong kagagalitan. Maramdamin ang isang matanda. Nagse-self-pity ako sa tuwing sinisigawan mo ako.

Kapag mahina na ang tenga ko at hindi ko maintindihan ang sinasabi mo, huwag mo naman sana akong sabihan ng "binge!" paki-ulit nalang ang sinabi mo o pakisulat nalang. Pasensya ka na, anak. Matanda na talaga ako.

Kapag mahina na ang tuhod ko, pagtiyagaan mo sana akong tulungang tumayo, katulad ng pag-aalalay ko sa iyo noong nag-aaral ka pa lamang lumakad.

Pagpasensyahan mo sana ako kung ako man ay nagiging makulit at paulit-ulit na parang sirang plaka. Basta pakinggan mo nalang ako.
Huwag mo sana akong pagtatawanan o pagsasawaang pakinggan.
Natatandaan mo anak noong bata ka pa? kapag gusto mo ng lobo, paulit-ulit mo 'yong sasabihin, maghapon kang mangungulit hangga't hindi mo nakukuha ang gusto mo. Pinagtyagaan ko ang kakulitan mo.

Pagpasensyahan mo na rin sana ang aking amoy. Amoy matanda, amoy lupa. Huwag mo sana akong piliting maligo. Mahina na ang katawan ko. Madaling magkasakit kapag nalamigan, huwag mo sana akong pandirihan. Natatandaan mo noong bata ka pa? pinatiyagaan kitang habulin sa ilalim ng kama kapag ayaw mong maligo.

Pagpasensyahan mo sana kung madalas, ako'y masungit, dala na marahil ito ng katandaan. Pagtanda mo, maiintindihan mo rin.

Kapag may konti kang panahon, magkwentuhan naman tayo, kahit sandali lang. Inip na ako sa bahay, maghapong nag-iisa. Walang kausap. Alam kong busy ka sa trabaho, subalit nais kong malaman mo na sabik na sabik na akong makakwentuhan ka, kahit alam kong hindi ka interesado sa mga kwento ko. Natatandaan mo anak, noong bata ka pa? Pinagtyagaan kong pakinggan at intindihin ang pautal-utal mong kwento tungkol sa iyong teddy bear.

At kapag dumating ang sandali na ako'y magkakasakit at maratay sa banig ng karamdaman, huwag mo sana akong pagsawaang alagaan. Pagpasensyahan mo na sana kung ako man ay maihi o madumi sa higaan, pagtiyagaan mo sana akong alagaan sa mga huling sandali ng aking buhay. Tutal hindi na naman ako magtatagal.

Kapag dumating ang sandali ng aking pagpanaw, hawakan mo sana ang aking kamay at bigyan mo ako ng lakas ng loob na harapin ang kamatayan. At huwag kang mag-alala, kapag kaharap ko na ang Diyos na lumikha, ibubulong ko sa kanya na pagpalain ka sana ... dahil naging mapagmahal ka sa iyong ama't ina...

a Heartbreaking Day!

Nangyari na to e..deja vu ba tawag dun?
Tuesday din yun e...Online din.
At least hindi sa ym...sa friendster nga lang.
Kaibahan lang, walang away,
at very smooth ang pagbalita ng friend niya.
Same person ulit...At timing na naman, may upcoming Retreat
Swerte naman ng taong to.
2nd year, 2nd time around ko ring magreretreat in order to Finally...
Put a Stop and End this Nonsensical love...daw.
At tama na naman ang Hinala ko.
Same reason, same situation.
The thing is, although heartbreaking, mabigat sa dibdib
Hindi na ako parang weeping widow, a smile on my face.

Yeah tin, it is really time to remove that bookmark you put on that special page.
It's time to let her go.

Annyong Haseyo!!!!

The Brrr in South Korea!

and thus

If in case I cant help my feet to leap and skip the turmoil,
can somebody carry me to freedom?

If I speak in silence,
can somebody embrace my agony?

If the rest of my IFs are not enough,
can somebody conclude my reason of living?

How one Can Totally Move On?

How One Can Totally Move On?

simple lang...

tulungan mo lang ang sarili mo na mahalin at matanggap mo uli ang pagkatao mo at ang mga pinagdaanan mo.

gusto mo isa-isahin, parang ganito lang. heto, tignan mo kung ano na ang research para sa mga nahihirapan diyan.

8 Things that will heal a broken heart. - By Mike Hardcastle -

Breaking up is never fun. The end of a relationship means the beginning of a period of mourning and healing for both people. If the break up was mutual both people will experience a period of adjustment where they are getting used to no longer being together. If the break up was not mutual the person who ended things may be dealing with guilt and feelings that they may have made a mistake. The person being broken up with will definitely have to adjust, first to being rejected and second to life without somebody they still care for. How do you get through those first few weeks? Here we list eight essential things everybody must do in the early days of a break up to let the healing begin.

1. Avoid the former love. Yes, avoid. No, this isn’t being immature. Seeing your former flame can bring out emotions and may cause you do to or say something you will regret. In the first few weeks the best thing you can do for yourself is not be where you know they will be.
2. Talk out your feelings with close friends. Get everything out so that you won’t hold it inside. Your friends may get sick of hearing you talk about the situation but you need to let out all your feelings and thoughts or they may come back to bite you later.
3. Cry if you want to. It’s OK to cry over a loss. Don’t hold back, let the tears roll just do it in a safe and private place where it is unlikely to get back to your ex. You don’t want your tears to be used as a guilt trip. Their purpose is to cleanse you of any pain not make your lover come back.
4. Let go of mementos. Put away or give away anything and everything that reminds you of the relationship. Hide them out of sight so they will be out of mind until you are able to remember the relationship without longing for it to still be going strong.
5. Don’t slip up and get together with your ex. When you are feeling sad or missing a relationship it can be very easy to fall back in to the arms of your ex but DO NOT DO THIS. This will only set you back and let’s face it, if things ended the relationship wasn’t perfect to begin with so why would you want to rekindle things?
6. Focus on all the things about your ex that drove you crazy, turned you off, or that you just plain found annoying. Think about these things often and replay them in your mind over and over. Dwell on them. It will make you feel better to remember that your former flame was not perfect and that there are things you won’t really miss.
7. Think about the mean, cruel or rude things your ex may have done in your relationship. Really give these things play in your memory. Remind yourself that somebody who truly cared for you would not have done such thoughtless things and tell yourself (over and over) that you are better off without that kind of ego crushing behavior in your life.
8. Maintain a strict no contact policy and stick with it. Don’t pass notes through friends. Don’t make any calls. Stay away from instant messaging or texting on your cell. Just don’t contact your ex until you are totally and completely sure you no longer want to be with him or her. It is the only way.

Mending a broken heart is not easy but it can be done. Just stick to the game plan outlined above and before you know it you’ll be just fine. Good luck!

Balita ko.

Balita ko...

a basta hindi ito chismis..

ang alam ko lang..

AMANOS na tayo!

***tutuloy ko tong blog nato after ko magparty...***

malamang issue na naman to sa kabilang site...

hay nako, let bygones be Baygons! hahahaha!

miss!

i totally miss...

the laundress every Sunday night.
such in a few hours she will rise and run off to work.

i terribly miss...

the singing madrigal while sitting in a natural emergency toilet.

i just do..
miss...
Y.O.U!

a love's bargain

i like this post about Manipulation and Marketing, it can somehow, inspire.

see: http://headrush.typepad.com/creating_passionate_users/2006/08/geek_marketing_.html?cid=97033212#comments


and i say,

to market and excel
from there a lover can actually start to manipulate
not that she sells her wholeness
but that is how it is being planned to formulate.

read between one's tongue
you might be caught, unaware


i guess you have to ready your brain as you use your heart so as not to sell it as a cheap bargain

Hips apart!

It’s really a suicide to think about

What you could have done better in the past,

Just to live with it, still at present

And perhaps, a preparation in the future

It is but insane to daydream

A discouraging wishful thinking

So why don’t you wiggle your heels

And act after learning from one tragedy

After all, it is still normal for one to commit mistakes, get hurt and sigh.

But never regret, cos you’ll grow through these pains

Eto lang masaya nako.

This is the best Christmas Gift ever.

Hindi ko lang mapigilian

pa-isa lang friends, although my heartbeat is normal
neither thinking of a violent, outrageous reaction
i just want to tell the truth.

2008 na, ang alam ko nagtext ako "Not to leave a trace"
at alam ko nung nagstart ang New Year, eto lang ang habol ko
"Please settle your remaining Balance and prepare my stuff,
When can i have them back anyway?"

syempre wala kang makuhang matinong reply kungdi
pasensya na walang money,
pasensya na busy and Ingat ka lagi
and all about the slut's itineraries and promises about love and illusion
which in fact, I really dont Give a Damn!

and i care less whether me Tangang nagbakasakali sa Changes and Chances
Habang aktibo sa Real World yung isa.
Me ganun talagang nagmamahalan,

basta ang sa akin,
I wanna have my own peace of mind
Nawala na ang helmet ko
Tapos nakong magpagamit,
me kapaguran ako
at ayokong tumatanggap ng Basura

Kaya spare me from the usual Baloney Monologue:
"I'm asking you to hold on, coz I'll be holding you for good"
" I am sorry for hurting you, I promise to be good"
At maraming marami pang walang katuturang drama!

Pucha, Good kung Good..
Good take...good shot, that's a wrap!

Nakakapanindig balahibo, sa diri...

Akin na ang mga dapat singilin ko, titigil ako
Para hindi na mapurnada ang muli mong pagpapaikot ng ulo
If this time, you'll behave
Harinawa ay maging Super faithful ka na sa kanya
at huwag ka nang katihin,
Kasi nakakaawa na yung isa, ako napapagod sa kakatanggap niya sayo

Ang guwapo mo naman masyado na tipong nag-iisa ka na lang ata..
Sa talinhaga mo magsalita,hindi na niya ma-differentiate ang Reel at Real World na alam mo.

Bahala na nga kayo.


Okay nako my dear viewers, I have totally Moved on and Redeemed myself!
Last words ko na lang to para sa kanila.
Wala na kong pakialam kung mabasa nila ito or hindi.

Ang saken lang gusto ko lang talagang manahimik na rin.

the Pros and Cons

life is full of impeccable disarmed yet imaginative beliefs
for those who are in pain, a dismay to go on living
but the optimists fight and say, "hey let us actuate!"
the antagonists will more or less, disintegrate.

so how can one survive without self-esteem?
why is there a need to achieve goals and dreams?
what is the difference between endurance and stupidity?
where is the point of equitability?
when will these questions end to substantiality?

the name of the game is,
Fall, wallow and bleed

then,

stand firm, with grace and dignified chance to regain and trust one’s self.

a Survival from a lesbian tragedy

She who lies in and out of her tongue will never have a clean breath. She who owns herself and trust her truthfulness will never be deceived by fools.

Supreme Future

Be not the slave of your own past. Plunge into the sublime seas, dive deep and swim far, so you shall come back with self-respect, with new power, with an advanced experience that shall explain and overlook the old. -Ralph Waldo Emerson