Premonitions...

"Shoo shoo..." a black cat had been walking to and fro, It scared me, and in a snap i thought of these people:
my Aunt,
then my brother-in-law,
the last was my friend's mom.
and another friend's mom...

Series of sad scenes began to roll in my head.. each person died after a month (or less) of praying for them.

Last Wednesday traffic was at its worst, as the cab driver tried his luck in passing through EDSA. as i looked on the other lane, a dreaming head began to say, " What if these cars bump into each other, creating a stretched line of "accidents"making it to the Guinness Book of World Records and Ripley..has it ever happened anyway?"

Went home that night, tired and counting sheeps to fall asleep, but because my TV was still on, CNN flashed a news about 72 cars crashed-and-bumped, some people were killed, on one snowy day.


....then i pray and say, i always tend to have a bad daydream.

My piece for DianaJo

"I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived." – Margaret Mitchell

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Sincere forgiveness isn't colored with expectations that the other person apologize or change. Don't worry whether or not they finally understand you. Love them and release them. Life feeds back truth to people in its own way and time - Sara Paddison

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The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong. - Mahatma Gandhi

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Wala ng babait pa saken hay nako!

Act of Confrontation: Baragan na

-----Original Message-----
From: De Jesus, Diana Jo D
Sent: Thursday, March 27, 2008 4:29 PM
To:
Subject: RE: Hoy!

wala ako sinabi na since nag-usap tayo.

that acct is new, nagsto-store ako ng pics kc wla nko multiply. im deleting old accts. a oo ung c.w.me n lng pala un!?? dko gets?


-----Original Message-----
From:
Sent: Thursday, March 27, 2008 4:23 PM
To: De Jesus, Diana Jo D
Subject: RE: Hoy!

hindi ko alam, pero one thing's for sure hindi ko alam kung me balak kang bumawi sa "damaged name" ko na bago mag-2008 i already left everybody and even dl cos i had too much of all the accusations and negative nonsensical issues against me. pero yung naging support ka pa..actually, di ko alam kung who's telling the truth.

another thing, sayo ang mylocolife.multiply.com right?!see, sinungaling ka!akala ko ba you dont check your multiply -- a oo ung c.w.me n lng pala un!

-----Original Message-----
From: De Jesus, Diana Jo D
Sent: Thursday, March 27, 2008 4:10 PM
To:
Subject: RE: Hoy!

what i meant was, wala naman akong sinabi. ni hindi ko inention si dina sayo or kung sino man. di ba nga ikaw pa nagsabi na tama na kc 2008 na.


-----Original Message-----
From:
Sent: Thursday, March 27, 2008 4:06 PM
To: De Jesus, Diana Jo D
Subject: RE: Hoy!


wow! wala na talaga? so talagang me nasabi ka pala??!!wow,wow, Grabe!!!!!!!!!!! after all the acceptance and chance ive given, talga naman!

uliran ka!
-----Original Message-----
From: De Jesus, Diana Jo D
Sent: Thursday, March 27, 2008 4:00 PM
To:
Subject: RE: Hoy!

hayaan mo na. gusto ko na lang mag sorry kung may nagawa ako, pero wala na talaga akong nasabi about you.


-----Original Message-----
From:
Sent: Thursday, March 27, 2008 3:52 PM
To: De Jesus, Diana Jo D
Subject: RE: Hoy!

e di makikita ko pa mukha mo, baka masampal pa kita!

-----Original Message-----
From: De Jesus, Diana Jo D
Sent: Thursday, March 27, 2008 3:51 PM
To:
Subject: RE: Hoy!

wala ako ofc pero nagtratrabaho ako. oo, ihahatid ko na lang,.



-----Original Message-----
From:
Sent: Thursday, March 27, 2008 3:49 PM
To: De Jesus, Diana Jo D
Subject: RE: Hoy!

pero nakakapag-email?hahatid mo dba?

-----Original Message-----
From: De Jesus, Diana Jo D
Sent: Thursday, March 27, 2008 3:33 PM
To:
Subject: RE: Hoy!

wala ako sa office today. tom ako papasok sa rc. bukas ko na lang dadalhin ng morning.



-----Original Message-----
From:
Sent: Thursday, March 27, 2008 3:29 PM
To: De Jesus, Diana Jo D
Subject: Hoy!

wer's my stuff?

cant even answer my call no?hay nako!style mo talaga nagtatago pag naglilie low.. you cant tame this raging anger you know! pocketful of shit for you!

Falling spaces

not all flowers bloom
not all raindrops fall in one's head
yet tears of a wounded heart keep dripping out of hand
if i were you, give me the just silent moment i deserve
keep distant and dont be too selfish
to understand that someone got hurt
while a starting couple is proud

this is just me.
i will deal with you
... once i have learned how to selflessly accept the fact that there will never be US for the second time around.

So please, leave.

Redundancy: empathizing through washing a deceiver's lace in the public

-----Original Message-----
From: De Jesus, Diana Jo D
Sent: Tuesday, March 25, 2008 1:14 PM
To:
Subject: RE: Read this, with high importance, click this Link i made for you

nung nag-uusap na tayo ulit, wala na din akong binanggit about dina and i didnt mention u too with her. wala na ako nakakausap sa kanila.



-----Original Message-----
From:
Sent: Tuesday, March 25, 2008 11:40 AM
To: De Jesus, Diana Jo D
Subject: RE: Read this, with high importance, click this Link i made for you

Wala akong pakelam sa pagiging Flaker mo at trademark mo na yan.

Ako ang nananahimik, sa lahat ng ginawa mo saken, i still gave you a chance to prove that you are worth keeping for..khet as a friend!
Pero tangna, tama nga sila, mag-ingat ako sayo!ako pa talaga siniraan mo ha!
Ang tagal kong di binanggit ang name ni DinaMarie, pero puro negative stuff against me pa pinagsasasabi mo! Expected ko na un, pero ung ipaalam pa sa iba,
TANGINA DJ, what have i done to you?!Nasira ko ba buhay mo because we've met!?

Simula pa lang to. di pako tapos sayo!

Ung galit ko ngayon sayo, nakadikit na sa laman. Bullshit ka!

Liar Liar Liar

-----Original Message-----
From: De Jesus, Diana Jo D
Sent: Tuesday, March 25, 2008 11:31 AM
To:
Subject: RE: Read this, with high importance, click this Link i made for you


nanahimik ako C. wala akong ginagawa sayo. wala na ako downelink. wala na akong connex sa downelink.

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I dont believe this liar.

Chismis na nakamamatay

ay ang katotohanan.

iisa-isahin ko ba,

no need to provoke me..

enough said na sa mga nagpatotoo..

na tama ang label ko sayo: "You're one devil's tongue!"

babalik ako ng downelink...

to redeem my name.

Sabi nga ni boss: "ke liit liit mong nilalang, ang dami mong nawasak"..but just to correct, hindi kami yun, sarili mo lang yun!

.......********hay nako, yeah yeah i know i may sound wasting my precious time, but PA-ISA lang, itataob lang kita!***********

Daydreamer

Daydreamer, sittin' on the seat
Soaking up the sun he is a
Real lover, makin' up the past and feeling up his girl like he's never felt her figure before
Her joy (..?)
Looks good when he when he walks, he is the subject of their talk
He would be hard to chase, but good to catch and he could change the world with his hands behind his back, Oh'

You can find him sittin' on your doorstep
Waiting for the surprise
It will feel like he's been there for hours
And you can tell that he'll be there for life

Daydreamer, with eyes that make you melt
He lends his coat for shelter because he's there for you when he shouldn't be
But he stays all the same, waits for you and then sees you through
There?s no way I could describe him
All I say is, just what I'm hoping for

But I will find him sittin' on my doorstep
Waiting for the surprise
It will feel like he's been there for hours
And I can tell he will be there for life
And I can tell he will be there for life

Finally got another song to describe the life im having

Chasing Pavements - Adele

Ive made up my mind
dont need to think it over
if im wrong i am right
dont need to look no further
this aint lust i know this is love

but if i tell the world
i'll never say enough
cos it was not said to you
and thats exactly what i need to do
if i end up with you

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there.
should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

i build myself up
and fly around in circles
waiting as my heart drops
and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it

or should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
[Chasing Pavements lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there.
should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

yeaaah ehh

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place
should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep on chasing pavements
should i just keep on chasing pavements

ohhhh ohh

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

Flakers..

Mamaya magkkwento ako about this word.

Pero one thing's for sure, ibat iba rin pala ang ganito. hehehe.

parang ako.

Ipokrita!

A quote for someone who has a devil's tongue:
"What you do speaks so loud that I cannot hear what you say. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson"

A quote for those who throw stones behind one's back:
"
Every man alone is sincere. At the entrance of a second person, hypocrisy begins. We parry and fend the approach of our fellow-man by compliments, by gossip, by amusements, by affairs. We cover up our thought from him under a hundred folds. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson, "Friendship," Essays, 1841"

A quote for some of my Cyber Friends:

" One should examine oneself for a very long time before thinking of condemning others. ~Moliere"

ang Downelink

sa totoo lang, nakakamiss na ang magkaroon ng Downelink account. Halos naging buhay ko to e, mapa-opisina,galaan or bahay ako, ang pagdidisenyo at pakikihalubilo, kauri ko man o hindi, ang pakikipagtalastasan sa chatbox at blogs isama mo na ang photo at blog comments ikakukumpleto na ng araw ko Iba't ibang posing shots, me kwenta man o wala ang Who I'd like to meet content mo basta huwag mong kakalimutang punan ang About Me mo kesehodang simpleng description yan ng sarili, adobe photoshop file,image or double division ng page yan pagandahin mo lang, lagyan mo ng me gumagalaw,labanan mo ang background ng mas fully-equipped na scripts at music list .................pasok ka na! syempre kung masipag kang magonline, lagyan mo ng chatbox, ilagay mo sa kaliwa ang buong page punuan mo ng links, baligtarin mo ang page mo,ultimo scrollbar makulay, i-dagdag at invite mo lahat ng guwapo at kung sino pang makursunadahan mo, mas popular mas okay, ................bahala ka! Ganun ako, sa mga dati kong accounts..magdedelete, magrere-add up Halos bilang ko rin ang ningas-kugon dun e, meron namang iba,malapit ng mag-isang Dekada. :D ...........................kaya lang, minsan, ay ewan sa akin kasi madalas e, naapektuhan nito ang real world mo, andyan ung makakadalo ka na sa exclusive parties,meet-ups or eyeball, ay mas may better term ngayon jan, "Coffee tayo?"hehehehe. nadadagdagan ang kainuman, kagimikan at katabi sa sinehan hanggang sa... mafo-fall ka,madedevelop,magkaka-crush suwerte mo kong taga-Pinas,mahirap kung ka-LDR pero mageeffort,magiging kayo pa rin sa kaso ko, hehehe, wag nang alamin, at parehong malas... kasabay ng pagkawala ng mga tinuturing mo na ring..kaibigan. at mahirap mang gawin, oo, tama ang nabasa mo, mahirap mag-move on at i-give up ang Downelink. subukan ko mang gumawa ng account at bumalik, sumilip silip, magsimula.. ayoko na rin...tama na... kahit Age doesn't matter dito, isa itong Temptation na magpasahanggang ngayon ay pinagdadasal kong mabalewala ko sa araw-araw. Less Exposure, less limelight, less spotlight, less Intrigues. parang less talk, less mistakes lang yan.

Wag kasing Assuming, expecting :)

Assumption and expectation,
magkaibang tunong ngunit magsingHimig
marami na ang natanso,
marami na ang umasa,
maraming naniwala.
Resulta,
bumagsak ang career
kinarma ng di oras
nawalang parang bula
nalaglag ng di sinasadya
In short,
naloko
nagmistulang tanga
nabaliw
naubusan ng yaman
umiyak ng balde-baldeng pagod at luha
Kasi naman,
maging alisto
mag-isip
makiramdam
magmuni-muni
magbilang
maging praktikal
magpaapekto sa realidad
gamitin ang puso't isip
Kaya sa susunod
magdasal
wag makalimot sa paligid
mahalin ang sarili
Upang sa gayon,
lahat ng bagay ay naaayon lamang sa totoong kasaysayan
walang dagdag-bawas, tamang blessing lamang
Tiyak,
isang matinong mapayapang bukas ang meron sa Lovelife :)