My mind was actually forming a blog type bubble thought. The worst emotional scene happened last night. PITY, i didnt gain any knowing how stupid i was last night. Nawala ata ang pagiging critical thinker ko, to the point na i was still waiting. Tanga, boba, ang utak ay nararapat pulutin sa legs... Una sa lahat, hindi na kasi dapat nagpunta pa, pauwi na kasi bakit nag-u turn pa.
Ganyan talaga, and for the longest time, nasa state of mask and denial pa rin...and still hoping. kungdi ba naman ubod ng Gaga at isang kahangalan di ba?!
I thought I really gave up on you. And that i have really moved on, to the point of trying a new (pumalpak din!) relationship... and to the maximum level of changing my views, my path, my preference.
Pero the greatest temptation talaga yung isang tapik lang, lilingunin mo agad.
I have to let go na.
Daig ko pa yung nabugbog last night, considering na I was crying while walking in the rain. Punyetang eksena yan, pampelikula lang yan dba?
Wala nakong mahugot na words...pero suwak ang kantang to.
"My Immortal"
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
